the funny thing is

The funny thing is. Most guys are assholes....period, end of story.

I'm sick and tired of them manipulating girls to make them think that they are the ones that messed everything up. They guilt you and guilt you, only to confuse you more and create some thought in your mind that you were in the wrong and then you start questioning yourself as to where you went wrong.

Now guys i'm sorry that it's directed at you right now, but I am a girl who has only had encounters with guys. I'm not saying that all guys are like this, or that girls aren't capable of doing this too, because I have met a few females that have.

I guess the question that I want to arise here is: Why do these certain people feel they have the right to mess with another persons emotions?

I know I have been a victim of this since I started dating when I was 16. It's really not fair.

I've never wanted anything more than this one thing my entire life. It's been on my mind for almost 5 years now. I would never do anything to jeopardize this and now I have. But only based on previous actions.

If someone was to constantly let you down, when the same patterns start to show up, the first thing your going to think is...this is happening all over again. You immediately get defensive and say things in the heat of the moment to save yourself from heartache.

Then when you find out that it was a misunderstanding, and you feel silly for jumping the gun. But what does this other person expect? They immediately get mad, make you feel guilty for attacking them. But what were you supposed to do when you had know idea what was going on?

So, what makes it okay for them to mess up and ask for forgiveness and you oblige, but when you mess up only once, they don't give you another chance?

I don't want to lose the one thing I've wanted for years now...but how does one go about fixing an unfix able situation with someone who wont even hear you out right now?

This is just a mess..